Due to a fiercest reluctance

There are plenty of things to be done sooner in my list. I must do this, then I should do that, Oh no, I have to do my prior assignments, oh please, I've not fulfill yet my room's payment, bla bla bla.. These things are straying on my mind. Frankly, I still couldn't devise what is the most important thing to do first. All my life doesn't go as well as I want. I wish I could find the way out from this circumstance. I try to endure my burden of proof  properly. It just because people around me recognize me as a mobility student, they think that I must be the best one. Perhaps, they are hoping whether I can impress them very well. In fact, I have been trying to offer my best in here. At least, I tried.

Beeing an eloquent person in few particular expertises is not easy to pin down. At present, I still don't now how to become that kind of person. My skill in academic is above standard but not superior. Although I can play several instruments, I am blind in block notes. I am also fierce in time management (for me arranging schedule is very hard to be defeated and to be punctual is the hardest one) . I bet if I stay comfortably in this way, I never be advanced in reaching more better quality of life.

Time is always ticking then i realize how much time that I spent for doing nothing in my life. I must encourage myself. What I have to do is should not pile my tasks into the montain's framework and just sit and wait whenever an angel comes to wield her magic wand and wish my tasks has been done very well by one swing. I mustn't rest on in the safe point. I must keep running into my goals. Making my beloved peoples be proud of having me in their life. Last and not the least, releasing the fiercest reluctances is the most significant thing to do first to pop up new spirit of fighting. SEMANGAT!!